I miss all my old friends that I depended on here. Where are you?

Sunday will be the one year mark that Bill has been gone. I remember that day like it was yesterday but then it feels like he has been gone forever.

I went back to the old posts and reread them. Made me cry to remember how much he suffered and glad that it is over for him.

We're here Joyce! I can't believe it has been one year! It seems like a few months ago. Hope everything is well with you.

That is a milestone. I'm sure going over old posts, was painful. But making it through your first year, is great! I've had some surprising melt-downs around my Dad's death. Like the opening ceremonies, for The Olympics? He used to always 'shush' us, and now I like it, just as much as he did. Guess I finally grew up!

Guess I haven't grown up yet Sky. I haven't found anything I like yet. But I'm still looking.

Aitan, how is you grandma and grandpa? Also how about that nephew? He must be getting around pretty good now.

Hi Joyce. I'm still around here, just don't post very often.

You have definitely reached a milestone. I did a lot of re-reading, and remembering at the one year mark. It almost seemed necessary to remind myself just how bad it was before she died -- I found that after a year it was hard to remember the urgency I felt then and how much I cried for her and hoped and prayed she would just pass...............feelings I am very glad had faded. Its now been almost 2 1/2 years and I still miss her each and every day. And I know your loss was so much greater than mine.....my heart aches for you.

Warm ((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))) dear friend.

Any loss is great Karen. I still miss my mother at times and she's been gone twelve years.

I've forgotten how hard it was caring for Bill. I don't look at pictures of Bill that I took closer to the end. Just didn't realize how bad he looked until I see one of those last pictures.

Yesterday went pretty good except when I read what the girls wrote on face book. I think it hurt me more feeling their hurt and loss than feeling my own loss.

I'm glad you're here Karen, you should write more often. Those of you still going through this journey, keep writing, it did help me to just tell others who really cared what was going on.

I miss hearing from all of you.

I'm still here, Joyce. I'm taking care of several clients who are in various stages of ALZ. The one I have the most trouble with is the gentleman who swears that it is cold in the apartment, so he keeps cranking up the thermostat. I finally had to get special permission from my employers to wear capri's and tank tops so that I could clean the place w/o passing out! I really do pray that he never falls during my shift with him... He has to weight close to 400 lbs!

Joyce, I can say that there are times when something happens that triggers a major depression over losing Old Navy. I cannot begin to fathom the depth of loss you feel over losing Bill. That doesn't mean I don't care... just that I'm at a loss at saying something that might cheer you. You continue to be in my prayers, even when I'm not able to visit the boards.

Thanks Deb,

How's your mother doing? Is she still at the same place?

Joyce, I'm as guilty as anybody for not checking in very often. We settled into a routine here at home that was very stable and agreeable to everybody for a while, and since I had all the support I needed I sort of forgot about the chat rooms. I'm not nearly as far down this road as most of you, and my grandmother probably has many years ahead of her still. When I start to feel buried this group is always such a big help!

I was going to write more but Laurette just started sighing very loudly at the TV, which is a sure sign that she's sick of it and wants to go to bed. It's back to work for me!